It is hard to describe what I have been feeling during the
last week and a half. I have had the opportunity to give a couple of
presentations on my latest trips to Haiti; one presentation to my colleagues and
one to a company that donates to most of my trips. Talking about my trips
brings back many memories; both happy and sad. Each time I bring Haiti up in
conversation in relights the fire burning inside of me to make a difference.
On Saturday morning I happened to come across a post on Facebook
that had stated that one of the babies I know from GLA was sick and needed
prayers. It broke my heart, and brought me to tears. This same day I was to go
to my family Christmas celebrations. How was I supposed to show up in good
spirits knowing that one of the little babies that holds a special place in my
heart was sick. It brought me comfort knowing that they would do the best they
could to make him better. I hear stories
and see pictures about sick and suffering children in Haiti weekly and it
breaks my heart. And then there’s some days where I see the stories of little
ones I met 3 years ago that were so malnourished that are now striving and
starting school. And this makes me extremely happy.
My emotions around Haiti are on a rollercoaster most days.
You know I am really serious when I say that Haiti will
forever change you. Well it has for me anyways. I can’t go a day without
looking at a picture of my little babies, thinking of previous experiences or
talking to friends who I have met in Haiti. Haiti is just a part of my everyday
life. It’s hard for me to go a day without talking to someone about my
experiences in Haiti.
Where would I be today and who would I be today if it wasn’t
for that first trip I took to the Dominican Republic almost 4 years ago now.
This weekend was extremely tough for me…
I am sure most of you have had your heart broken in your
life time…you know that feeling where you feel like your heart is literally
aching…
This weekend my heart was aching…
Literally aching…
I felt like I could have broken out in tears at any moment.
If someone called me and said, drop everything and come to
Haiti, I would have been on a plane immediately…
All I could picture was being reunited with my little ones
and holding them in my arms…
But for now all I can do is pray…
Update
the little one I speak about above is doing much better!!
