Thoughts

It is hard to describe what I have been feeling during the last week and a half. I have had the opportunity to give a couple of presentations on my latest trips to Haiti; one presentation to my colleagues and one to a company that donates to most of my trips. Talking about my trips brings back many memories; both happy and sad. Each time I bring Haiti up in conversation in relights the fire burning inside of me to make a difference.

On Saturday morning I happened to come across a post on Facebook that had stated that one of the babies I know from GLA was sick and needed prayers. It broke my heart, and brought me to tears. This same day I was to go to my family Christmas celebrations. How was I supposed to show up in good spirits knowing that one of the little babies that holds a special place in my heart was sick. It brought me comfort knowing that they would do the best they could to make him better.  I hear stories and see pictures about sick and suffering children in Haiti weekly and it breaks my heart. And then there’s some days where I see the stories of little ones I met 3 years ago that were so malnourished that are now striving and starting school. And this makes me extremely happy.

My emotions around Haiti are on a rollercoaster most days.

You know I am really serious when I say that Haiti will forever change you. Well it has for me anyways. I can’t go a day without looking at a picture of my little babies, thinking of previous experiences or talking to friends who I have met in Haiti. Haiti is just a part of my everyday life. It’s hard for me to go a day without talking to someone about my experiences in Haiti.

Where would I be today and who would I be today if it wasn’t for that first trip I took to the Dominican Republic almost 4 years ago now.

This weekend was extremely tough for me…

I am sure most of you have had your heart broken in your life time…you know that feeling where you feel like your heart is literally aching…

This weekend my heart was aching…

Literally aching…

I felt like I could have broken out in tears at any moment.

If someone called me and said, drop everything and come to Haiti, I would have been on a plane immediately…

All I could picture was being reunited with my little ones and holding them in my arms…

But for now all I can do is pray…

 

Update the little one I speak about above is doing much better!!